Believe it or not, I almost forgot today was the fist Wednesday of the month! Sorry for posting so late in the afternoon today, guys and dolls!
What am I insecure about this month? Does it ever change, or it always the same old same old?
It changes and this month, I am being totally completely honest....
I must sit back and ask, is it worth it? Is the waiting, the rejection, the wondering, the tears, and the waiting some more? Is it worth it?
I know it is. I know I MUST stay focused and determined. But it's hard.
It's hard to see other writing friends I have met who started the publishing journey the same time as me. See them with agents, or contracts, or published books. It's hard. It really is!
Don't get me wrong. I am so thrilled and happy for them it's almost like seeing my own work published and successful. But then reality sets in and I know it's not MINE, but my good friend's manuscript soon-to-be published book. Can I act like it doesn't hurt? Should I act like it doesn't make me wonder what's wrong with my writing?
I've come to the conclusion there must be something wrong with my writing. Maybe my technique? My style? My voice?
I don't know, but I am DETERMINED to find the answer and correct my problem.
I will succeed.
I will win.
I will be published.